I pretend to be calm in the ocean of tremors
I pretend to smile listening to the rumors
Trapped in my own colours and countless hues
I pretend as if I don’t know the real you
I keep away from probing-
Scared my fears shall be affirmed and true
Aware of the apprehensive depths
Alas! the shallows I fear.
Dread it when shallows are deep
And depths no more obscure.
I have nothing to hide; No need to conceal
Yet I pretend to leave behind an aura of mystique.
Drenched in my own thoughts, soaked with imagination
I pretend not to think the queer.
I know it all- Pretend to be a wandering soul
I pretend to stay in one place
When my world had traversed the entire universe.
I pretend to stay quiet
Listening to my own silence when it makes the never ending creaks
And it hums a little song amidst the bleak
My heart filled with music; A tune ever repeating
The same rhythm just different lyrics
I pretend to stay still not dancing to my own epiphany
I pretend, pretend and pretend- a game that never ends
Not to merge, not to camouflage- but an urge to never blend.